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I've been crocheting for over 30 years, and come from a family of yarn and fabric artisans. I learned to sew from my Grandmother who made several quilts a year entirely by hand...one for each child, grandchild, and great-grandchild. Life situations and changes caused me to take a chance and open my first Etsy shop in Feb. 2011. A few successful months later, I opened my second Etsy shop as BeccaTheBaker...and later in 2011 opened my third Etsy shop as BeyondCrochetToo. I'm a single mother of 2 teenagers (a girl and a boy), plus 2 cats. I'm a 5th generation Native Californian (Northern California. And am happy to be back on the West Coast in the Pacific Northwest where I belong.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Finding Control in a Whirlpool of Chaos

I was feeling really low yesterday. - I mean REALLY low!
It seemed like every new project I started, or every new decision I made turned out to be crap. I was worrying about my business, worrying about the move and all that needs to be done first (deadlines, deadlines, deadlines!), worrying that the move will never come, worrying about the crochet project that wasn't coming out right (foolish, I know), and tied into all of it...worrying about finances.

I was caught up in the whirlpool of: "I don't like how this is going, but I've got to finish it because...". And then I saw this quote from don Miguel Ruiz pop up on my Facebook wall:
I am in control of my attention. By mastering my attention, I control my choices, and master the dream of my life. I can create anything I want to create. I can do anything I want to do. The dream of my life is going to go wherever I want to take it.  don Miguel Ruiz

Simple statement, but very effective. My attention at that moment was focused on the negative and I was ignoring the positive that had happened and was still happening in every aspect of my life. So...I changed my focus. I not only put aside the project I had been working on (the Parrot that refused to be a Parrot!), I put aside all the negative focus that went with it. And I did something that I don't often do... I gave myself a break! Gasp! Choke! Horror of horrors!! Yeah, I know...but, you can't tell me I'm the only one of us crafters/artists/shop-owners that don't make time for themselves. I know most, if not all of you get caught up like I do. ;)

I still checked my emails, Etsy convos and activity feed. I answered anyone that needed answering; tweeted, liked, and reposted anything that needed tweeting, liking, or reposting; took note of anyone I need to payforward in a treasury (the PayItForward Team has been VERY active lately); then....I exited out of Etsy, refused to look at another email until today, didn't look twice at my yarns or crochet hooks, and pulled up POGO.com and played online games most of the day (mostly Aces Up and Mahjong). 

By the end of the day, I not only felt better - I was more focused. I picked back up the project I had been working on, and decided that if it didn't want to be a Parrot - it didn't have to be! I was able to look at it and see what it was meant to be and now it's what it wanted to be all along....

The Parrot that wanted to be an Octopus. :)

*For more on don Miguel Ruiz see:


  1. This is a great posting. I think I need this strategy lately. There seems to be too little time, too much I want to do, and too many little things that go wrong. A break is a good thing.

    And I love your poctopus (parrot turned octopus) and those curly legs.

  2. Thank you very much Eska, I appreciate the support. - Hope it helps you too. :)

    And I love the term "poctopus". LOL